Where are you at when it comes to worry? Are you inclined to focus your energy imagining all of the perils lying in wait around the corner? Do you spend hours (years?) second guessing every decision you’ve ever made in life wondering “If only I had…?”
If your tendency to worry paralyzes you in a way that prevents you from putting your car in gear and driving forward, are you content to live your life stuck in neutral?
I have worries, believe me. I am uncomfortable when my children are passengers in anyone’s car during long and (too) fast rides. After two rounds of relatively “good” cancer, I am inclined to being a bit paranoid about not being so lucky if that crabby* bastard decides to lap back around for a third visit. Being a homeowner makes me incredibly nervous at times because there are far too many things of which to keep track. I wonder, occasionally, if I will ever be in a healthy and satisfying romantic relationship again. See? I, too, worry.
But, what can I do about any of it? Do I give away today with worry about tomorrow? How can I if I don’t have control of any of those things? All I can do is reiterate the importance of driving with caution and stress to the boys how imperative it is to take driving seriously. I try to keep myself strong with exercise and nutrition in case of further challenges to my health. I’m learning to ask for help when it comes to maintaining my house and my car. I’m actively working on things to enable me to keep moving forward in a positive fashion.
I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that life can change in an instant. When that time comes again, I’d like to believe that I’ll be ready to face any and all challenges thrown my way. What I’m not going to do is this: lose myself speculating and projecting about both all the mistakes I’ve made in life and all the possible ramifications of my future decisions. Today, this very day, is far too precious to cast it aside for the events of yesterday or the imagined perils of tomorrow. Go get it.
*In German cancer is called “krebs,” you know, like crab. Seems an appropriate word to me.